Post by Aiko on Sept 7, 2009 15:14:55 GMT -5
Ugh, I've seen this happen before. This is all about the human nature - striving to be more than it is. Humans are constantly looking for answers in places, regardless of where they are. And they think, 'Hey, if it's true for that person, it might be true for me!' This is why there are different religions (all based on similar stories), and why scientists constantly search for answers. There's no difference between them and you. Scientists look around, spiritualists look within. But they're all looking for the same thing.
And who are they looking for? Themselves. It's a hard answer to come to in the end.
I went through all my denial periods almost a decade ago. I went through depression, and all those so-called stages, until I finally just gave in. None of my friends were like me. I believe who I am solely on my experiences and had very little outside influence.
My advice to you is this: Be YOU. If you have to put effort into being someone else - or your fan character, as it were - then take a breath and relax. I'm not saying that you aren't, or can't be. Trust me, if you are said character, you will know in time.
How did I know who I am? My views were reinforced by people telling me I was too much like a fox for my own good. I could spend days, weeks, forming a plan and acting out my role in it - and using everyone else as unsuspecting helpers. I am a Kitsune - and I hate to say it because well, the Tails Doll is like me - a Kitsune. But I'm no Tails Doll. I came from the so-called myths and lore of my kind. Some of it's true for ME, some isn't.
There is never one truth. There are so many humans with so many ideas - and non-humans too. But remember, someone's truth may not be your truth. Do a LOT of soul-searching before you just 'decide' who you are. The trip to becoming who you are is supposed to take most of your life.
My memories are not fully recovered, but by being me every day - I learn something new now and then. It took me years to even remember what I know now.
So I wish you good luck.
And who are they looking for? Themselves. It's a hard answer to come to in the end.
I went through all my denial periods almost a decade ago. I went through depression, and all those so-called stages, until I finally just gave in. None of my friends were like me. I believe who I am solely on my experiences and had very little outside influence.
My advice to you is this: Be YOU. If you have to put effort into being someone else - or your fan character, as it were - then take a breath and relax. I'm not saying that you aren't, or can't be. Trust me, if you are said character, you will know in time.
How did I know who I am? My views were reinforced by people telling me I was too much like a fox for my own good. I could spend days, weeks, forming a plan and acting out my role in it - and using everyone else as unsuspecting helpers. I am a Kitsune - and I hate to say it because well, the Tails Doll is like me - a Kitsune. But I'm no Tails Doll. I came from the so-called myths and lore of my kind. Some of it's true for ME, some isn't.
There is never one truth. There are so many humans with so many ideas - and non-humans too. But remember, someone's truth may not be your truth. Do a LOT of soul-searching before you just 'decide' who you are. The trip to becoming who you are is supposed to take most of your life.
My memories are not fully recovered, but by being me every day - I learn something new now and then. It took me years to even remember what I know now.
So I wish you good luck.